Positive(ly) Pregnant!!!

Well i did not expect to be posting this news so soon but...I am Pregnant.  I woke up this morning with this feeling..You who have been pregnant know the one..I just felt that if I took the test it would be 100% accurate.  So me and my very full of concentrated hcg urine bladder, went downstairs to POAS:) Literally in seconds there were two lines.  My eyes filled with tears .  I was still sleepy so I rubbed my eyes and looked again and it was darker.  There it was the plus sign that will make dreams come true!

I called Shane and then my mom, of course..I was screaming "They're gonna have their baby...We did it..I'm Pregnant".  Shane was so excited as was my mom...She was relieved it was good news since it was just 8 am.  I made some breakfast, kissed my kids with the biggest sense appreceation for their lives, and called Norways expectant parents to give them to good news.

There is a smidge of a language barrier but "I'm Pregnant, You're gonna be a Mommy" came through loud and clear.  She sighed a relieving sigh almost to say, finally...and then she squealled as she hollered to her husband in the yard. 

So far this is the most amazing day in a long time.  So gratifying.  So beautiful.  We did it..Here's to growing this into a big, beautiful baby:) 

On a side note:  It is kind of early to get a Positive test, hoping there aren't quintuplets in there...Seriously:)))

Kisses to the little peanut..

6 days down 7 to go...

Well as you know This past Sunday I had my Embryo Transfer and things went very smoothly.  The Dr. said it was so easy and he fully expects a "Positive" outcome.  I have been so careful this week but today I finally feel like just letting go and resuming my normal life.  It has been all consuming for me but today I am deciding to let nature take it's natural course and let this baby do what it will. 

I have been told on several occasions what a lovely uterus and endometrium I have so my question is who wouldn't want to live there????  I am believing that he/she has grabbed hold and is rapidly groeing and I will feeling the pangs of pregnancy soon...

As of today I have felt a little woosy and mainly tired with sore swolen breasts...I would know because I have virtually nothing!!!  I am hoping these are signs of the changes (however small) taking place within.

Thank you for those that support me with your kind words and comments bith here and in 'Real Life":)
One week from today I will know and E & S will have their lives changed forever.  The mere thought of  telling them brings tears to my eyes.  I walked through the infant section today thinking how great it will feel for E & S to walk down that aisle with good tears instead of painful ones..with hope and joy instead of sadness and emptiness..

No matter what I am so glad I chose to do this..My heart is abounding in love for 3 (maybe 4) people I don't even know.  Isn't that the point of life..To love not hate...To give unselfishly..To help and not harm...

Just reflections during my 2ww (not 2world war...2 week wait)..I didn't know either.  Oh and if ever i use "POAS" that means pee on a stick..so many things i'm learning...

Baby Dust to me and all the others trying to conceive through assisted Reproduction..What a journey.

The Transfer

Well if you have been following my blog you are aware that I am in LA fot the transfer...Here is what happened:

I came to LA yesterday walked all over Pasadena (Beautiful by the way) and rested for the big day ahead.....that is still ahead.

I walked about 8 blocks to HRC (my dr's office)...sat half naked in his sterile chair and listed to his quite diverse musical selections on his ipod...in came the embryologist (he makes the babies) to give me a picture of the cute little things.  You know the Charlie Brown show the scribbles that came up when linus talked???That is what the embryos look like this morning...

Back to the point::  Next came my Dr to ask me how many we were transfering...HELLO!!!!!  We mighta should maybe already asked that question...og the PARENTS..  Doesn't he remember I am not the Momma!  Just letting these sweeties cook.  So the calling began and all involved have decided to transfer 2 Blastocysts (that is 3 days more advanced embryos) on Sunday morning.  By then our percentages of achieving a pregnancy go way way up. 

For me and for them it is worth the wait.  I want this to take and have a great outcome for these sweet parents.  They have waited so long to take such a gamble.

While I was initially frustrated, my dissapointment quickly dissapated as I looked around at beautiful Pasadena.  At about 9:15 this morning instead of heading to bed rest I headed to an out door area called Paseo Colorado.  The wather was a sunny 80 degrees and I was so eager for a stroll down fashion and eclectic eatery row.  I have a beautiful day planned at the beach tomorrow, sad I know, and then should be fully ready to receive these wonderful lives.  I am believing that this was all part of the plan.  I was so nervos and tired but after today and tomorrow, I will be calm and ready.  I am already so in love with the idea of this baby(ies),,,I cried looking at their picture.  They are people...God has a plan for whatever life may come forth...He is orchestrating this for His Glory..In time we will know.

So for now thanks for reading,  Thanks for your comments, they mean alot.  Fingers crossed that on Sunday a life will begin...

baby dust:)

Transfer Confirmed.

Today I got the call I have been waiting 8 months for...Transfer will be in Pasadena at 8:15 am Friday.  Wow...I am overwhelmed by it all.  I have asked every question imaginable and now I just have to breathe.  I am thinking of doing a juice cleanse just to rid my body of any toxins and make my uterus a "green zone" for this little embryo:)  So an update:

My estrogen was not fully compensating for the lupron shutting down my ovaries so I am not on an injectable estrogen every 3 days (inta-muscular)  not too bad as i have an aunt that is a nurse and does them for me..

egg donor was not ready for retreival today so it was pushed to Tuesday.  That means for me:

Monday: last screening for lining thickness, last lupron injection.

Tuesday: begin Progesterone support via vaginal suppository

Wednesday: begin 3 X daily vaginal suppository and 3X daily progesterone lozenge.  Also I start a steroid to help my body not to attack the pregnancy to come.

And that is that.  I will be on these meds until the 12 week so here we go...

please if you think about it, remember the ip's who are so anxious and waiting in Norway.  They will not be here for the transfer.  I am hoping for a wonderful and healthy pregnancy and a peaceful trip to la. 

I will be on bed rest for 2 days...Good thing I have all six seasons of Sex and The city...

Thanks to all who read..

Baby dust....

Estrogen sweet estrogen...

Tomorrow is my screening.  I am hoping to hear that my estrogen is high enough to start progesterone and get this Uterus thickening show on the road...I want to be optomistic although I have heard about many failed transfers lately...I am believing that my posture and attitude will contribute greatly to the success of the transfer.  I have my fingers and fallopian tubes crossed.  Hope you do too:)

will it EVER happen????

So close, yet so far away.  I was supposed to be heading out to LA this week, but the egg donor started her medication just a little later than i did and is not quite ready for the retrieval.  So we wait, and get shots for another week.  I heard from my IP's and they were so sweet, asking how I was with the meds and the upcoming transfer..for the first time there was hope in their voices.

I have been waiting for 7 months, but they have been waiting for nearly 11 years.  What's another week, eh??  Thanks for following.  Hoping to post pics soon.

Baby dust....

Melissa