Not pregnant:(

Gosh, this is really NOT what I was hoping for..I was hoping to update everyone that a baby bundle of joy would be snuggling up into his daddy's arms in 10 months but it's looking like more like 13 or 14 months now.  I got the news OFFICIALLY at around 5:30 yesterday but the truth is I have known for a while...I never got that feeling that it took.  I was devastated for T and immediately felt responsible.  Isn't that what we women do?  We take everything on ourselves..successes and failures.  We blame ourselves.  I cried but shortly after receiving the news I felt relief..no more pregnancy tests..no more wondering.  Now I knew..now T could get the ball rolling for try #2...This next time will work.  I know it.  So what now?
I stop all my meds and wait for AF:/  Everything else is really up to "T" and our medical team.  We have both spoken to our doctor and have been advised to proceed together but make a few changes this time.  I spoke with "T" tonight and I get the feeling that he is ready to go..even more ready than before.  I am hopeful that his baby is on the way.
I am going to get back to the gym...back to my life as usual with the kids and my sweet hubby..MY hubby!!!  It was our 10th wedding anniversary yesterday and we had an amazing night out!  Tomorrow is my son Brennan's 8th birthday.  The most wonderful little man to ever live turns 8...be still my heart! 
Thank you all for reading and following..thanks for your support...until next time-

9 months??

So today marks 9 months for the surro-sweeties.  UNBELIEVABLE!  Wishing them a happy day (even though it's not a birthday).  Here is where the fun really begins.  Crawling and scooting and walking, Oh my!!

Love to you Linnea and Marius.

xoxo

p.s. in 6 days I should be heading to LA...

Beautiful People

I watched the season finale of Sister Wives last night.  This show has caught so much flack and called vile and disgusting but to me it kinda seems normal (for them NOT me) and functional.  Last night was the much anticipated delivery of Robyn and Kody's first baby together, Solomon.  Robyn wasn't the only wife nesting in anticipation, Meri, a sister wife, was also eager.  The birth was lovely but the heart stirring moment came moments after when Robyn offered to be a surrogate for Meri.  "Using yours and Kody's stuff" Robyn said.  I forget, because I am around surrogacy all day everyday, just how beautiful it truly is.  A woman sees the longing in the eyes of a parent to be and steps up and says "I want to do this...wholeheartedly...for you!"  Some critics of this process may say that we (surro's) are not entirely genuine as we receive compensation, but I assure you no amount of money can ever prompt a selfish heart to be so generous.  YES..this is a pat on the back to me and the many like me but hey I am after all a "Proud Surrogate".  Here is to all who are on the road of infertility or struggle to realize a family without assistance.  You are heroes!  You stop at nothing to see your dream a reality.  What a perfect team we make!!